So I did a lot of prepping for Pawan's home coming. Especially when he had finished buying his ticket.I tried to clean the apt. I went to the doctor to get a clean bill of health and get on birth control. I want to have some alone time with my husband before we make another baby, since apparently we are fertile together after all we got pregnant in the only month we spent together. And I went to the dentist and got my teeth cleaned, cavities filled and two root canals. I've been feeling sick all week, one because of the meds from my teeth and I think the rest are my nerves messing with me. After two years and 4 months he is finally going to be here.And I hate how the house looks, I hate how fat I have become. I'm stressing for no reason all because it's his first time in the USA and its been soo long. One min I'm happy, the next I'm crying. I am going crazy here just waiting. I know once he is here then things will kinda calm down. (or at least I hope so) I'm excited and fearful at the same time. And I have no reason to be fearful, I know its just a bad case of the nerves. I guess I fear because I worry what if he isn't happy here or with me... All of these fears are running through my mind at the speed of light. We have been together for more than 3 years but I still worry. Sorry this is just how I'm dealing right now....impatiently waiting , waiting, waiting.....
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